I tried to rest my mind in the way he taught, but my mind wouldn't rest. In fact, during those early years of formal training, I actually found myself growing more distracted than before. All sorts ofd things annoyed me: physical discomfort, bakcground noised, conflicts with other people. Years later I would come ot relaize I wasn't actually getting worse; I was simply becoming more aware of the constant stream of thoughts and sensations I'd never recognized before (12-13).
This is so encouraging because I know that I find myself struggling to sit in meditation without losing focus as my back begins to ache or my vertigo gives me the sensation of moving when really I am sitting. Just sitting and breathing.
I would like, in the coming days/weeks/months, to explore not just my physical and mental wellbeing but also my spiritual. This makes sense to me to work mind, body, and soul as part of my working towards a stronger sense of wellbeing.
So the resurrection of this blog is on the not too distant horizon. I have various resources pulled and ready to be explored. Today is merely a gradual turning point.
